Monday, December 22, 2008

reupholstering queens

So if your ever sitting at home on the weekend before Christmas and don't feel like you have enough to do even though you haven't come close to finishing your x-mas shopping and haven't wrapped a single present, why don't you reupholster your kids chair and couch set. And while your at it use a broken staple gun (we knew it wasn't working right but didn't realize it was broken, duh!) and a wobbly work table.

Yep I'm not kidding me and mom decided to reupholster my kids couches. Which ended up turning into a 14 hour project....NO JOKE!

Here's what we did, by the way we should go into business because these things turned out awesome

Here's what the chairs looked like.....we found them at a garage sale about a year ago

This is all the staples I pulled out of the chair, and oh that's my pile of fabric

All cleaned up and ready for upholstery

Here's the couch right before we reupholstered it, we did the couch first.

Look at that new fabric, so cute right. It's colorful sheet music in case you can't tell.

And the couch almost done....

Doesn't it look amazing, not finished yet though....

All done and ready for Christmas. Isn't it so freaking cute. I wanted to add a different color to it so those things on the arms (whatever the hell they are called) are in a yellow and white checkered pattern, and we are working on some pillows that are going to have the same print. And my mom gave me some lamps that are yellow and white checkered so we have plenty to bring that color into my kids room.
And after 14 hours of labor and bruised arms, hands and completely and totally exhausted we are done with both

Here they are (compliments of my phone, that's why such crappy pics), my kids are going to LOVE them
I can't believe how long these babies took but it was totally worth it they look like brand new chairs, and they are so SAWEEEET!!!!!
Me and the kids stayed at my moms the week and weekend of Thanksgiving and on Friday I called HWAG and asked him to bring the chairs when he came to get us. So when we got home that Saturday night SOS started crying because somebody broke in to our place and stole her chairs and ABB told her no Santa came and got them he's going to bring us new ones.
Then with us moving and my cousin in the hospital and everything we haven't' had time to reupholster them but we just had to considering Santa is bringing them to us and all.
I'm so glad they are done in time for x-mas.
On a side note
I can't wait to get a computer desk until then I might not be blogging very often cause this setup HWAG's got going on SUCKS.
In case I don't blog again until after Christmas
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! have a happy and safe one.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Is the week over yet?!?

I am so (well) downright TIRED.

I am having such a busy (which never happens to me), and crazy week. I just thought I would let you all know what's been going on cause I might not be able to blog for a week or so (not that I blog all the time). But we are moving so I don't know how long we will have to go without internet.

My lil cousin (she's 12) had to have an aneurysm removed (it was right behind her left eye) on Monday, and I was at the hospital Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday helping take care of her. She was doing great they had moved her out of ICU before I left on Wednesday. But I guess now she's not doing so great she can't see out of that eye at all, she's finding it extremely difficult to walk. So they moved her back to what they call square one which means no getting out of bed, taking her meds every 4 hours, letting her sleep longer. They had planned on sending her home in 2 to 3 day's and now they have to keep her longer, they also want her to go to a rehab center after she leaves the hospital. They just took her and had another CT done, the doctor thinks it may be another aneurysm. Just keep praying for her. And thanks so much for all your prayers.
My aunt called me tonight and said that her youngest son broke his arm at school today (same family).

Did I mention I haven't been home much, my kids are a bit angry with me for leaving them for 3 day's so I have been paying the price for that, plus it probably doesn't help that I'm exhausted. But it really did feel like they laid 3 day's worth of crying, wining and fighting (with each other) on me today.

I felt like the house was falling apart when I got home. I'm sorry HWAG I know you tried (and he did) but I was so stressed about the house today; my hubby didn't pack one box all week. I was so stressed all day I packed and cleaned up all day today and I babysat and had my own kids. I know wha wha wha wha, I'm aloud to complain it's my blog.

WE ARE MOVING!!! Yey, and yes I am happy, no more crabby neighbors (I hope) and no more up stairs, and finally a 3 bedroom. Yey be happy with me. I had to go sign for the new apartment today and I called them to make sure we were good to go and they had us moving in on Monday so none of the paper work was ready, the apartment wasn't finished yet (maintenance was putting carpet in when I called). I was so mad they just had put the wrong date down, but you know HWAG had already got Friday and Sunday off so we could move. So I had to fight to get the keys, I'm sure they hate me, but I got the keys. Again yey. We can start moving in

I'm still reading my book, I'm learning so much and being tested to the max (like with today). But I'm handling myself way better. I'm handling my kids way better too. Duh right.

Well I guess I should go finish packing.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Volcanoes 101

Here she blows. Really here's more from the book.....

She's Gonna Blow! Real Help for Moms Dealing with Anger by Julie Ann Barnhill

My relating to the second chapter Volcanoes 101. Understanding How She Blows

In these chapters she goes on to describe 4 different kinds of volcanoes and comparing them to our momma blow ups or like I like to call them freak out moments. The four volcanoes are The Strombolian, The Hawaiian, The Vulcanian, and The Plinian (I'm not going to go through what she says about them all, only mine again).

And MINE was quit easy for me to identify. I'm in with The Strombolian eruptions or blow ups, whatever you want to call them.

When this volcano "blows" it's eruptions sound a lot like the din of a powerful jet engine at close range, and it spits out volcanic materials such as cinders and thick, pasty lava bombs. But because the eruptions are relatively short and happen at predictable intervals, the Strombolian would seem to be one of the least threatening volcanic eruptions. After all, how much damage can a few cinders do?

So Strombolian eruptions=predictable, short-lived, and seem to blow over with little residual damage. Only not, repeated small eruptions and cinder showers can eventually bring about as much damage as any other kind of eruption.

Once again my heart is left aching and sad, this is who I have become as a mom.

I always feel regret after I do or say things I know I shouldn't to me kids, It's a horrible feeling and it's keep me up many a night (which is what it sounds like it did to her too) .

She gives some hints as to how to short-circuit a volcanic explosion such as concentrating on your physical reactions. Remind yourself to breathe deeply and slowly, concentrating on the flow of air in and out of your lungs. Consciously relax your facial muscles--unclench your jaw and teeth, raise your eyebrows to smooth out your forehead, unpurse your mouth. Deliberately stretch out your hands (which may be clenched into fists) and roll your shoulders to relax your neck. By changing your physical response to anger, you may be able to cool down your emotional response as well.

I have already started using her techniques and have stopped a few explosions. It feels really good to focus your attention on your muscles (it really is helping me to relax).

A quick story, I have battled with depression for a long time and my last doctor (who I totally laughed at (out loud)) suggested that I do yoga cause it would help (you know with the relaxing of my muscles, which could possible help with the depression). My bad, maybe yoga wouldn't be such a bad thing for me after all.

Volcanic Dangers
Volcanic eruptions are dangerous! Even the relatively "safe" Strombolian eruptions have the capacity to cause long-lasting harm, and the more violent kinds of explosions can destroy your family. Here are just a few examples of what you can damage with your angry outbursts:
  • Your children's sense of security
  • Your spouse's trust
  • your relationship with God

It doesn't have to be that way so Strombolian moms, we must unite! No more excuses and no more whispered prayers of "please don't let them remember." No more!

I love what she's saying, I love finding peace and comfort and help in her beautiful words and wisdom.

Questions and Answers :/

1. What is your most consistent style of erupting in anger? Does it resemble one of the four volcanoes described here, or would you describe it another way?

I've answered this above, I'm a Strombolian momma, I would have to say the only thing I do that's not described is throw crap but never at my kids.

2. What is your greatest fear concerning your eruptive anger and your children?

I would have to say my kids sense of security, I want them to feel completely safe in my home.

3. Has there been a time when you knew, without a doubt, that your anger was uncontrolled, out of bounds, and potentially harmful to your children?

No. I stick to only yelling at my kids, but I believe (like she said) it's doing more damage then what I actually know.

WOW Volcanoes 101 was a hard chapter for me, but I learned so much about my kids, myself , and my type of anger (explosions). But she gave some great tips to start working on and I've already been able to use them. Please pray for me, I will be praying for myself, bettering myself and focusing on changing my ways. And I will remember to spend time enjoying my kids every day.

I love my kids, and I can be a good mom.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

How did I get here?

HWAG has been sending me links (to help with parenting), not just for me but he's been reading them and when he reads one he thinks can help us to be better parents he sends them to me. They have been really helpful and have been spot on, but they have been a real wake up call at the same time.

So I thought to myself, you have a million and one parenting books pick one up and read it, it's not like you can't use the extra help. So I grabbed all of my (parenting) books and sat down and started to read the backs of them, got to the bottom of the pile and picked up She's Gonna Blow! I didn't need the back to decide this is the book for me.

The book is She's Gonna Blow! Real Help for Moms Dealing with Anger by Julie Ann Barnhill

I'm really identifying with the book and I know this post is going to leave me totally vulnerable but I really feel the need to share some of what I've read and to answer some of the questions (she asks ? at the end of every chapter), if my opening up can help anybody else that's dealing with anger it will be worth it.
I'm still reading the book and I deal with anger (almost) everyday, try not to be too judgemental, because I am working on bettering myself.

The first chapter is How did I get here? Some unwelcome discoveries about motherhood, anger, and really blowing it.

She goes on to tell some stories of times she has been completely angry with her kids, and she even tells how she has reacted to them....ouch. You'll have to read the books to hear her stories (this is about mine).

She asks what kind of mother am I? With this in response to her own question Before I had kids I planned on being "a good mother"
  • dynamic
  • involved
  • compassionate
  • fun
  • inspiring
  • loving

and then "honestly, I didn't have a clue"

Now her list reads more like

  • impatient
  • discontent
  • irritable
  • depressed
  • disappointed
  • angry

I couldn't begin to tell you how much THIS IS HOW I FEEL. I totally understand this. It makes my heart sad and ache, but this is me.

Questions and Answers :/

1.Have you experienced an "aha" moment of mothering? Where did it take place and who was involved? What is the most surprising fact you have learned about yourself since becoming a mother?

Yes recently in fact, I think I mentioned in another blog that we had been having a hard time with ABB, he was scribbling on all his school work. Well I was getting mad and I tried different ways to get him to stop such as taking things away from him, spanking, yelling. Then one day I was like "aha" he keeps doing this because he's getting so much (negative) attention from it so I started only focusing on the good work he brought home, and "aha" we only get awesomely colored pictures now. Most surprising would have to be the anger.

2. What parenting issues tend to be trigger points for your particular kind of anger? Under what particular circumstances do you tend to "lose it"?

I "lose it" when I feel like nobody is listening to me, when I just keep saying the same thing over and over and I'm getting know where, or I get a NO, or an I don't want to. And if it's a day when I feel like I have a million things to do, I really "lose it" then.

3. How did you tend to communicate your feelings of anger before children-verbally? physically? through withdrawal or silence? Has your "anger style" changed since becoming a mother? Is the intensity level lower or higher?

I would have to say before children it was mostly silence, but if I was really and I mean really angry I would get physical with people. I would have to say yes my style has changed, and my intensity level is way higher, I don't think I have ever been as angry as I get now.

4. What childhood or early adulthood ideal of "good" mothering have you regretted giving up the most? Stop and consider how much influence these resentments are playing out in your anger toward your children.

I would have to say working outside the house and having time (in everyday) to just enjoy the kids.

5. Name two moms you know who seem to be struggling with anger toward their kids. How could you use this book as a tool to develop creative conversations and encourage one another towards change?

I know a few mom's I would love to tell about this book, unfortunately at this time I don't talk to them. But I'm hoping that blogging about what I'm reading and my own struggles will help any other moms who come across my blog.

6. Are you harboring any secrets in regard to your anger and your behavior-things you do and feel when no one is around? Who would have a difficult time believing your story of anger?

No I'm pretty open in sharing when I have done or said something wrong, I always tell HAWG, it's important to me that he knows I feel overwhelmed at times and need his help. I have told close friends and family members too, I don't want to ever hurt my kids so If I start getting that angry I get help and walk away. I guess a lot of time's I feel like running from my life instead of sticking it out here, I don't always share (every time I feel that way).

I just wanted to add that I don't get physically abusive with my kids but I do yell (a lot), and I do have to walk away so I don't hit them and I say things I shouldn't say like "I wish I wasn't a mom". I do have moments where I totally freak out and throw things across the room, and I have broken down crying in front of my kids, that's just to name a few things. And for some reason my freak out moments always happen after work (my work is babysitting). I start to feel overwhelmed at dinner time and that seems to be the time when my kids start freaking out.

I love my kids, and I can be a good mom.

Monday, December 1, 2008

100 Books in 1 year-November

I'm so enjoying trying to read 100 books (it's never going to happen, well not in 1 year anyways), but boy I am enjoying it. I have read more books in the past 3 months then I ever have before (I'm guessing).

Here's my list


1.Secrets of a Shoe Addict-Beth Harbison
2. The Great Gatsby-F Scott Fitzgerald
3. Twilight-Stephenie Meyer
4. New Moon-Stephenie Meyer


5. Eclipse-Stephenie Meyer
6. Breaking Dawn-Stephenie Meyer


7. Dreams-Barbara Delinsky (3 books in 1)
8. Family Tree-Barbara Delinsky
9. The Guardian-Nicholas Sparks
10. Cardinal Rules-Barbara Delinsky
11. Gemstone-Barbara Delinsky

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Because a thankful heart is a happy heart!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Well I'm at my moms so I have a limited amount of time on the computer, but I just wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to all. And list a few things I'm thankful for this year.

I'm thankful for my hubs HWAG, I'm thankful that he's the main provider for our family and he always has and always will work hard to support his family. He knows me inside and out and he's still happy to be with me. He's been helping so much around the house, and he understands that sometimes I JUST NEED A BREAK.

I'm thankful for my 3 healthy babies.

I'm thankful for C2MM, I'm always so happy for the times I just get to talk to her. I love hearing how amazing she's doing in school, she wants to graduate from high school and that's so big. I'm thankful that she hasn't let her mom define who she is. I love that we haven't seen each other in so long but we still understand each other (the way other peeps just don't).

I'm thankful for my ABB. He's such an amazing little guy. He's so smart, I'm thankful that he loves going to school and he loves doing homework, and he loves that he's learning how to read (he makes things seem so easy). He's such a good big brother, he's always watching out for his little sisters. I love that he likes to spend alone time with me, because I love it too.

I'm thankful for my SOS. I love how sensitive she is, because she's sensitive to all things, So all the small things we do matter to her, I LOVE that. I love that she has a million and 1 puppies and they each have a name and are so well cared for. I'm thankful that she loves books and she loves to run, we are so much alike. I love that.

I'm thankful for my LLOL. She is always and I mean ALWAYS making me smile and laugh. Who knew that a 2 year old could be so much fun (by being so damn funny)? I'm thankful that she's such a sweet baby. I love that she loves when I just hold and hug on her, it makes my day so often. I love that she can't go to bed until her daddy gets home at night and gives her a big hug and kiss. I love that she loves my dad so much.

I'm thankful for my parents. I'm thankful that I have them and that I got to spend thanksgiving with them. I can call my mom any time and she's willing to talk to me (specially when I need it). I'm thankful that my dad is still here with us. I'm always glad for how much they love my kids, me and my hubs. I'm thankful for my moms cooking. Yummy!

I wanted to hear from you guy's, so if you want to share anything your thankful for please share it with me.

Here's one of my favorite veggie tales songs, it's so sweet

I thank God for this day,For the sun in the sky,For my mom and my dad,For my piece of apple pie!For our home on the ground,For His love that's all around,That's why I say thanks every day!Because a thankful heart is a happy heart!I'm glad for what I have, That's an easy way to start!For the love that He shares,'Cause He listens to my prayers,That's why I say thanks every day!

Say thanks everyday peeps, say it everyday. : P

Friday, November 14, 2008

Twilight Movie Countdown

Shamrock Christmas ornament

I saw this at Target, and I fell in love. I didn't buy it for myself cause I've NEVER bought myself an ornament but I want it. Hint hint
It's amazing I know.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

And it keeps getting younger, and younger

Me and HAWG and our 3 little ones went to Peter Piper Pizza this past Tuesday, what a fun time we had. Eating out is always clean and so easy when you have 3 under the age of 6....NOT! It seems to be a huge mess and hassle and completely tiring.

But what I really wanted to blog about was the kids who were sitting directly across from us, first off where the hell are kids parents these days???
So sitting next to us was a table of about ten or eleven 11 years old and some looked even younger then that, kids.....just babies to me. But obviously not to them or their parents, not only did they all look all "gangstered" out they all had cell phones that had to cost WAY more then mine, and they all sat there texting (so cool) right??

The thing that REALLY gets to me and that made me feel a million different emotions like sad, scared, unhappy, and other feelings I don't even know how to express was that three sets of them were boyfriend and girlfriend, who are not even just boyfriend and girlfriend (like the cute little kid stuff) but they are BOYFRIEND and GIRLFRIEND, the girls (not even developed yet) are sitting on the boys laps and they are making out....WTH!!

It makes me so sad for them, where are there parents and why aren't they explaining to there kids that things are supposed to be special (like your first kiss, and so on) you get my point, if these little babies are making out at 10 and 11 what the hell are we going to face when our kids get older. I'm scared and sad for me and my hubs do we really only have 5 or 6 years before we face this with our baby?? What do we do as parents? How do we make our kids understand (when every other kid out there is doing the things we don't want our kids to do)?

I just am shocked at how the world is corrupting our kids at younger and younger ages. It really does sadden me.

Me and HAWG both lived (WAY) different lives but we both were way late bloomers (on every scale) I definitely had the chance to be bad and I could have gotten away with having sex at a young age but I was sooo much of a tom boy and completely like duh about boyfriend, girlfriend stuff that I didn't fully understand or care about anything (like sex) until about 16. And my hubs had a completely different life where his parents just keep him extremely busy and sheltered that he couldn't do anything even if he wanted too.

I would hope that my kids are a little bit more outcast (I guess that's the word to use), if fitting in means them selling them selves short, then I don't want them to fit in. I want them to just be happy and sure of who they are and to not feel pressure where friends, girlfriends, sex and drugs and everything else is concerned. It's making me cry now just thinking about the evils we are up against as parents.

I guess like most parents I just want the best for my kids.

Monday, November 10, 2008

My first weigh in.

I can honestly say that this week I was surprised by the weight loss, but I did it!

I know I did okay I followed some of my rules or guidelines so to say...but not all of them and I wasn't consistent with any of them. : (
That's probably the laziness in me.

What I need to continue to work on
  • Write down everything I eat and drink
  • Drink 8 oz glass of water before every meal
  • Don't eat after 7 pm
  • Don't use my extra 35 points
  • Working out 180 min a week
  • Sit ups every week
  • Lose 38 pounds in 8 months

What I did great on but need to make sure I keep doing

  • Drinking 64 oz of water (some day's it's a lil less but not to much) I did great on it
  • I haven't had any soda well I had 3 glasses of diet all week and 2 glasses where coke zero which is considered water on WW
  • I used less salt (just a lil) I did good, I will continue to do good, and try to cut out a lil more

I wrote down everything I ate Mon-wed and I never went over my 25 points, the rest of the week I didn't write anything down. In my defence it was a crazy busy busy week.

I worked out about 75 min last week and did the sit ups Mon-wed the rest of the week wasn't so great on the working out.

I just really need to push myself to do harder and I will (try). I really want to lose this weight, oh my gosh I want to, I'm just an emotional eater and an emotional person so its really going to be a lot of work to break my habits, to bad I can't be a person that works out when I'm feeling emotional or an emotional organizer or something crazy like that, why do I have to love food.

Okay well here's my weigh in results

  • Starting weight-168.o
  • current weight-165.4
  • Total weight loss-2.6

I can do this!

I also wanted to say you can leave me comments. You don't have to have a blog spot account or write your name if you don't want to, you can comment under any name you want to or anonymously. thx

Friday, November 7, 2008

How close is too close?

I know I'm so cool people can't help but feel drawn to me. Totally joking!

But I have a serious question. How close is to close when you work for somebody? I technically work for myself but I get paid to watch peeps kids, I guess that means I work for them because If I didn't watch those kids I wouldn't get paid....duh!

Well one of the girls I work for is really pushing friendship, and at first I thought it was all cool and good and possibly we could be friends. I'm starting to think she's pushing friendship to try and take advantage of me. She's always trying to get out of paying me full price, which I freaking HATE.
My reasons would be I don't charge that much to begin with and I work my ass off to keep the kids clean, feed, happy and learning.

Now what? What do I do?

The other 2 couples I babysit for want friendship too, the only difference is I TRUST them, they never complain about the pay or ask how much they owe they just know what to pay, they don't try to get me to babysit Saturdays or holidays.
One of the couples even has given me more then what I ask on more then one occasion (for supplies or just because they know I work hard). I so love them by the way they are two of the coolest people I have ever met.

Even with all that said How close is too close?
I want to keep it professional, I want them to know I like them and I love there kids. How do I do this and what do I do?

Is it okay to go to birthday party's or out for ice cream and so on, or is that not okay. Is going out without the kids okay or is that a total NO?
I'm so lost. HELP!

Monday, November 3, 2008

Laying down some laws for some serious weight loss

Tomorrows Tuesday and I wasn't able to do Atkins at all, it's just not something that is practical in my life right now. I'm sad I wasn't able to lose a couple pounds before the picture, but I'm sure I will get over it at least I'm not the full weight I was this time last year. : )

Something more practical for me is doing weight watchers again. It's easy to follow and it's a life style change rather then a diet, the only reason why it didn't "work" for me the last time was because I didn't follow through with it.

So I started doing ww today, and I will continue to do it hopefully FOREVER!

I'm still at a weight of 168.0 (I know cause I weighed myself this morning). I will weigh myself every Monday. Any who that puts me at a total of 25 points allowed each day. With 35 extra points a week. I'm going to try hard to not use that extra 35 points.

Here's my plan Stan

  • weigh in every Monday (and only Monday's)
  • write down everything I eat and drink (for the first month at least)
  • drink 64 oz of water everyday
  • drink an 8 oz glass of water before every meal
  • don't eat after 7 pm
  • no soda (only diet)
  • use less salt (I'm a salt addict)
  • try not to use my weekly 35 (extra) points
  • work out 4 days a week for 45 minutes or 180 minutes a week
  • do 100 sit ups everyday
  • Lose 38 pounds in 8 months

When I look at that list it seems like a simple plan and super easy to follow. I'm not asking myself to do anything way crazy or unaccomplishable (is that even a word). I'm really looking forward to the weight loss and I think this will be a good plan for me. Well wish me luck again. I will try to write my accomplishments every Monday. Until then I guess I'm stuck with this weight. hahaha

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Trick or Treat!

Here's some Halloween pictures.

We didn't know that ABB could wear a costume to school, until the last min. So we put together a costume really quick so he wouldn't feel left out, he went as a 50's kid. So cute.

And here's there costumes from Halloween night. ABB got best costume at 4 different houses. He was our "savings" like from the cox commercials. : P
SOS was a cow girl and LLOL was a Lady bug fairy, they all looked so freaking cute.

They had such a good night, It was so fun taking them trick or treating. SOS couldn't wait to get home and eat her candy and LLOL would wait tell everybody got candy and then she would tell the person k shut your door, I was like oh LLOL what are we going to do with you.

And after we got home we watched Spongebob Squarepants Halloween and ate candy, what a night.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Hello it's the last day in October!?! Why am I still baking

First off I just want to say that I love love love Christmas time, and it's getting closer to that time and I swear to you the coldest it's got in the good old state of AZ is like 70, WTC!! I really do love my fall and winter COLD (I hate the cold, ask anybody close to me, once it hits about 75 I start complaining about how I'm FREEZING) but that's besides the point I like it cold so I can have a cold Christmas it just makes it seem that much more real to me that it's ALMOST thanksgiving and Christmas time. Today is such a nice day but it's still in the 90's. Okay weather it's time for a change.

My random update

ABB is doing so good in school, he was just going through a tough time in school. He started getting picked on by a girl in his class, the teach said she's mean to everybody but really gravitates toward ABB for some reason (probably because he's so darn sweet, and isn't mean to ANYBODY) did I just say that, I'm his mom I'm allowed. Well his school work was being effected by it, he was bringing home work that he just scribbled all over, and me and HWAG not knowing what to do about it we started talking to him about it (a lot) and trying to get to the bottom of the bad schoolwork. But then we realized he started liking the attention he was getting so we changed our way's and started only complementing the things he did right like wow ABB look at your name, you wrote that "(enter letter's of his name here)" letter so well type stuff. Or wow look how well you colored this square and so on. Well it helped we have only got good school work in return so I'm very happy about this.

Me and SOS have been running into some major problems at home like with the thumb sucking I just can't do anything to help her stop or to try and explain to her that she should want to stop. I'm thinking about scheduling her a dentist appointment just to have them talk to her about what she's doing to her pretty teeth. And she's CONSTANTLY telling me NO so I'm trying to work with her on that too, everything's no mom I don't want to or I didn't do it why should I clean it up or I want to do this not that. It's so aggravating but I'm trying to figure out the best way's to help HER stop, as in what is going to work for my sup-o-sensitive girl? How can I do things and get points across to her without hurting her sweet little feelings??? Oh SOS

I took LLOL to the store the other day and she had me laughing and calling HWAG every 10 minutes, I wanted him to hear what she said to me before I forgot. Oh and this is the first year that LLOL actually gets what's going on with Christmas (and I have a feeling), me and Rudy are in BIG trouble this girl loves the holiday's as much and if not more then I do.

Oh how I can't wait for Christmas!

C2MM called the other day she sounds like she's doing great I was so very excited to hear from her it had been like a month since I last talked to her : (
Any who she has an email address from school and she's been writing, I'm so glad because I have missed her so much.

Okay lastly, I have done.........well........nothing to help myself lose weight. WTC is wrong with me, I want to lose It's just not enough to actually get out there and lose weight, what's up with that? Why am I being so lazy??

Oh and here's a recent picture of me. I was drunk when I took it, but I think it turned out to be a pretty cool picture anyhow.

100 Books in 1 year-October

In early September I decided I wanted to read 100 books in a year. Well I would have to read about 8.5 books a month to get to this goal, I did okay in Sept. but I didn't reach my goal of 8.5 books. And guess what I did horrible in October. I'll be lucky to even read 50 books this year.
: (

My thing was I got addicted to the Twilight series and after I read them it was so hard for me to get into another book. By the way the Twilight saga rocked my socks and is totally worth the read, totally worth it. I read all the books in a little less then 2 weeks.

Well I'm still going to try and go for my goal. NOW I have to read about 9.5 books a month to get to my goal.

Here's my book list so far


1.Secrets of a Shoe Addict-Beth Harbison
2. The Great Gatsby-F Scott Fitzgerald
3. Twilight-Stephenie Meyer
4. New Moon-Stephenie Meyer


5. Eclipse-Stephenie Meyer
6. Breaking Dawn-Stephenie Meyer

Monday, October 27, 2008

What Your Bed Says About You

What Your Bed Says About You

Outward appearances are a concern of yours, but not your primary concern. You try to take care of yourself and your home, but it's not an obsession.

You are an organized and disciplined person. You do the right thing because you want to, not because people expect you to.

You are not very high maintenance in general, but you are high maintenance about a few things.

In relationships, you tend to kick back and let the other person be in charge.

You tend to be a dreamy, head in the clouds type of person. You think in terms of possibilities.

You are a bit of a homebody, but you can also make yourself at home anywhere.

I was on myspace, and my friend had posted this in her blog and I took it out of pure boredom and I was like wow it's so right on for me. It's really who I am. One of my favorite sayings is

Our house is clean enough to be healthy, and dirty enough to be happy

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Halloween is going to suck this year.

I thought this was funny and oh so true, so many people have lost there house to foreclosure, it's sad. You can include me and my hubs in that. We owned our own home and first my husband lost his job and then (we didn't have a fixed mortgage) and they keep upping our payment and we struggled so much. Sooo we ended up letting our house go, and it was probably one of the healthiest things we did for our kids and our relationship.
I guess possessions aren't everything.
With all of that being said.........
Have fun taking your kids trick or treating this year. : P

Friday, October 24, 2008


Wow my least favorite topic. I'm not even sure that I should do this, then again maybe it will be motivational for me.

Okay so I haven't really thought much about goals or what types of exercise I want to do yet. What I have thought about is....

Well my sister called about 2 day's ago and said hey moms birthday is coming up and she would love a family photo (of us adults, and all the grand kids). This is going to be a surprise present for my mom, she's been asking for this for about 2 years and we have yet to do it. So we set a date, in a week and a half from today to take the picture.
I'm totally excited to be doing this for my mom, I'm not however excited to take the picture. I haven't had a professional picture taken of me sense high school. : (
I'm not at a place where I feel good enough to take a picture that's going to be hanging on a WALL for god knows how long.

So I decided I would weigh myself this morning and I have gained about 6.8 pounds in the last 4 months.

So that's what i know and this is what went down about 8 months ago.

Okay so about 8 months ago some friends of mine started doing WW and convinced me to try it with them (and at the time) I was training to run a half marathon.

I did pretty well the first month and lost 20 pounds quickly but after hitting 20 pounds it took me about 3 or 4 months to lose 9.2 more pounds.

And now

I'm still glad to be over that 20 pound mark because even with my current weight I have lost 21.2 pounds.
I want to get back on WW and try to lose more weight, I would love to lose about 30 to 35 more pounds. I would love to get out and run 2 to 3 day's a week at least 3 or 4 miles each time and go walking 2 or 3 more days for at least 3 miles every time.

I'm seriously considering doing Atkins for the next week and a half to try and lose a quick 10 pounds before we take this picture. The truth is I'm going to start Atkins TOMORROW, when I've done Atkins in the past I notice the weight lose right away in my face, and I would love to look skinner there then anywhere else (for the picture).

I will try to be good about posting my progress...I will definitely be good about posting it as long as I'm happy with my results. : P

Well here's the most painful part about this posting

My current weight lose 21.2 pounds
My current weight 168.0 pounds
My goal weight 130 pounds


Thursday, October 23, 2008


Okay so where to start....

Well I'm truly Mrs. Bookworm, reading is my favorite past time. With a family I can't do it as much as I would like but when I do have free time I'm reading, and sometimes when I don't have free time (but can't put a good book down) I'm reading. I set a goal for myself in Sept to read 100 books in 1 year, so far I'm not doing so good.
I run for exercise and to clear my head I really do enjoy it, I don't love to train for a race or to feel like I should stop at a certain point. I love to run just freely. I would do 4 or 5 miles everyday if I had the time.
I'm trying to lose weight....blah. Promise I will blog about weight some other day. It's not my favorite subject, not even close. : P
I haven't made life easy for myself and I spent a long time beating myself up over it but I'm trying (hard) to NOT beat myself or anybody else up over it, I struggle but I'm doing better and I'm so much happier.
I'm OBSESSED with One Tree Hill (OTH) I will probably blog about it often, be prepared.
I babysit during the day but I'm currently looking for a night and weekend (Saturday) job. I want extra money for Christmas.
I can't spell to save my life but I love Scrabble it's my favorite game, I win most of the time. : )
That's enough about me.

Meet my husband Hottie with a guitar or HWAG I will blog about him often. He bugs me must day's but I'm in love with him, and his ability to wow me musically, lol.

I have 3 beautiful babies

My oldest started kindergarten this year, he's such a big boy. And he's an awesome big brother (ABB) He play's the role of big brother well, he's always looking out for his little sisters and any other kids younger then him as well. It's like having a second daddy in the house. I thought I would be so excited when it was finally time for him to start school but I truly was scared and completely NOT ready. But now I'm so glad he has school, he loves it and has learned so much. He makes me happy everyday.
My Middle baby is so sweet and so super sensitive (sup-o-sensitive) or (SOS) I really love that about her. She's me...she's all me, that SCARES the crap out of me. My little lady is obsessed with puppies and not actual dogs but stuffed animals and toy puppies, she loves them has about a million, has a name for each one and loves each one I promise you that.
My youngest is a handful, she's a lot like me too, but in the I'm the baby way I don't think she's as much like me as SOS. She's cute and funny as all crap (she's constantly making me laugh). She's way to smart for her age, she's got everything figured out (she's 2, she knows what's best) which also makes me laugh, she's a huge drama queen everything is way played out. Just thinking about it is making me smile she's my Little Laugh Out Loud (LLOL)
Last but not least is my lil sis (well HWAG's little sister) but we are so close, she's more of a daughter to us. She's almost 17 and almost out of school. She's super smart, one of the strongest people I have ever met and talented (like HWAG) in so many different way's she doesn't know how strong she is, we are proud of her daily. Me and her are so close we have a ton of different sayings for each other but my favorite is she's the cheese to my macaroni (C2MM)

Okay that was a super long beginning....I really hope you enjoy my blogging. It shall be fun